the eeg rhythms in my brain are pretty haywired. what, with lack of alpha waves and more of chaos im thinking/imagining/wishing for so many things that i know are unreachable or possibly impossible.

i miss australia, and thats like me back in sec 3. when its the first time i experience mild winter and yet, froze my ass off. first time i experience ice mocha and instantly fell in love with it. the first time i ventured out of singapore, beyond malaysia and the big seas. even, the first time i went out of country alone with two girls who werent quite my friends yet. first time i got in touch with french, following my host buddy into her french class, and was given a french magazine by the tutor who told me pleasantly "for your reading pleasure". first time i half puked from abt a slice of cheesecake. first time i wore three-layered school uniform: a blouse, a woolen jumper and a blazer - that only covered my torso. my bottoms were only a skirt, i still remembered i loved squatting, because then, my blazer can cover my bottoms too. so yea, the reason why i froze my ass off..

i missed those school uniform days. i dont have to think of what to wear. i know for sure whats going to be tested and i got tested on those at every test. its based on absolute grades and not relative grades. i missed going to esso or whichever convenient places to eat and study with shimin. i missed hanging out at this ulu yishun mac with jieru and lixiang, worrying about our school hols homework because we slacked for a month and we are left with less than a wk to finish up all the homework. i actually missed the 200 chem mcq given by our tutor, i remembered doing them on bus trips. happily filling in a b c d a b c d and the cycle continues. i missed reaching hc early and seeing yifan twirling the bball on his strong index finger. i missed bio s paper lessons, then i will chit chat with david about nothing and everything before the lessons. i missed robotics and micromouse in which everything was like a game.

then i missed those leisure trips, the redang, the taipei and the bangkok trips with 78ers. those crazy times (like shopping, massive eating and laughing uncontrollably) and company were unforgettable.

i missed the exchange in london. really taught me what is OTOT. how to have fun, how to enjoy, and importantly. how to plan trips ;)
the second time i flew out of sg alone with a friend who was not yet a friend and who i dont consider as friend now. the first time i experience seriously serious winter. first time i had snowball fight, of course, not in ldn but during the eastern europe trip. and to learn where not to throw a snowball at. first time i really really truly travelled alone, OTOT, in germany. first time i tried to test my alc capacity and found out that its less than a shot. first time i learnt and played poker and was told im a hopeless poker player.

i missed vietnam cip. i missed the kids. the simplest worries, the simplest pleasures. the simplest food, and the simplest laughter. the most sincere consideration for others. to clear our food even though its others' jobs to do, just because you thought of the cleaner as a person. a fellow human and not just a mere cleaner.

perhaps in 3 months' time. i MIGHT say i miss my lab.